Looking back, the first few weeks of breastfeeding Ben was like a mommy boot camp for me. Since I was his source of food and comfort, I had no choice but to practice holding him, studying each and every part of him while he fed. It taught me to be patient and flexible since he fed on demand. It thought me to be sensitive to his cues because I notice he latches better when he’s not yet very hungry or sleepy. More importantly, I learned how to become assertive when it comes to my parenting choices. I’ve always been the type of person that’s non confrontational and easily swayed by other people’s opinion. But when it comes to breastfeeding Ben, I’ve always stood my ground despite several advices to mix-feed. I think this is because I armed myself with enough information to make me decide that this is the right choice for him.
And now more than a year later, I’m still reaping the benefits of sticking it out during those crazy first few weeks. I know how Ben feels by the way he feeds, whether he’s needs comfort because he’s sick or just needs to relax after an hour of playing. The expression of his face when I lift my shirt is just priceless. And because I’ve been able to defend my decision to breastfeed until now, I’ve realized that given enough information and conviction, I will be able to stand by my future parenting choices. I’m so thankful to God for blessing me with this amazing gift.